Wow the days are going by fast. Lots have happened in the past couple of weeks. Most have it has been very stressful on several different people including me.
Christmas is coming up and im so excited! Friday Lisa, Joe, and Joli are coming up to have a pre-christmas with us. We are going to do the things that we normally do on christmas that day since neither of us will be here on the actual day. My family and i are driving up to Oregon in the motorhome.
Yesterday was Joli's first birthday party, and her father found it neccesary to have a bottle of rum and coke to add to the festivities. Apparently a party isn't a party without the captain present. My gift to Joli was a singing penguin trio that after about 20 times of her pushing the button, you get really sick of it. It's a christmas item though so luckily for Lisa's sanity, the penguins only come out once a year. Here are some pictures from the party:
Last night Lisa, Joli, and Joe arrived and right away things were crazy around the house. My friends Sonali and Ryan were over, and Joli seemed to be particularly interested in Ryan. When he first walked up she pointed at him and said "Lookie!" It was adorable but unfortunately for her, Ryan's baby-phobia got the better of him, and he kept a strict distance of 10 feet away from her.
Soon after i went to soccer practice where only 5 players showed up. It was really disappointing considering the next time our team is together, we will be playing a tournament. I guess we will just have to improvise when it comes to our first game.
This morning i woke up to Joe frantically ticking me: it was rather annoying on my part. I guess he considers it tradition to wake me up like that everytime he comes.
Now we are all just waiting for Daddy to get back so we can eat :]
The days have been going by so fast that I barely know what day it is anymore. We just had halloween and its already Thanksgiving?! The last couple weeks I've been focused on the things that mean the most to me. Being a good friend, soccer player, student, swimmer: It all takes effort and time. There was a moment about a month ago where i wasn't sure what I wanted anymore, but it quickly passed and now im content with everything that is happening in my life (for the most part.) I think that if Andrew was here, then my life would literally be perfect. Apparently perfect lives are in the midst of being created, and can not quite express themselves yet.
I know marine biology has been my main obsession for the majority of my life, but lately i've been beginning to rethink it. Maybe being around it so much, i had an overdose and am no longer interested in it; Maybe i just have decided its not as interesting as i had always thought. I'm not sure how to express what has happened, but im not sure what i want my profession to be anymore. It feels wierd to not know. I'm now one of those kids who have no idea what they want to do in life. I've always been the one with an answer and now i have none. It's strange to look to the future and not know what i'm doing. Apparently thats what kids my age are supposed to do, but i've never been like that. I guess i'm just going to free float for a while.
Have you ever felt completely and utterly hopeless because there's some thing that you want to do, but there is no possible way that you can? That's about how i'm feeling right now. Andrew has been really sick this past couple weeks, and yesterday he passed out during school and had to go to the hospital. I honestly didn't know what to say when he told me that. I couldn't come see him because apparently i'm a little person who doesn't know what she's doing. Now i may have just put words in some people's mouths, but we all know that's what they're thinking. I just feel so out of control. I can't go see him and help him through this, which i want to do more than anything. He's someone that I care about so much i would die for him, but he's also my best friend. And i wish i could help him get through this because he's helped me through so much. Honestly there's nothing that he doesn't know about me. When it comes to my problems I can trust him with anything. I dont know; I just needed to rant there for a minute.
The last few days has consisted of hanging out with friends, the PSAT, and lots of smoke.
On Saturday i woke up at about 7, went to starbucks, and took the PSAT at the high school. It wasn't as hard as i always imagined that it would be but i was still pressed for time making it a little more difficult. After that I went to my friend Ian's house where we ate pizza and watched the third Starwars until it was time for me to get my hair cut. Stacy and i talked about her new baby, Cooper, and she did a great job with my hair in the process.
Saturday night was probably the best part of my weekend. Becca and i painted ourselves with body crayons and partied the whole night. There was one point where we thought we were gonna die but thats ok.
There have been a lot of fires here the last couple days, including one about 4 minutes away from my house. The sky has been several shades of orange and makes it difficult to see at times. I remember the last time we had fires like this my Great Grandmother in Chile passed away. Socal got through those fires, hopefully we'll get through these ones too.
Soccer is basically my life, so here are some pictures of our team:
This is me for sure :]
Sonali is pretty much awesome.
So is danya.
Melissa is cool too.
Right before our game.
The rest of the team needs photographed.
Lately everything has been awesome. Drama in high school as always, but thats easy to deal with because it passes easily.
I bought my dress yesterday for homecoming:
There were 3 that i couldn't choose from so I had Becca help me and she said that this one looked amazing. I found that I was having trouble because all of the dresses are made to eccentuate you're breasts and that definitely wasn't what i needed. In some of them I looked like i might fall over. And a few of them were just interesting to say the least. From the picture you can't really tell but the one that i choose is teal and has ripples across the front. I really didn't want a plain dress or a long formal one. This one fits what i wanted and its gorgeous. You can see the security tag bump on the left of the picture though. Anyways thats about all for now!
Throughout the day I have thought about it, and kids would be a lot more interesting in school if it seemed more interesting. It doesn't make sense to me that teachers take a situation, and make you memorize basically everything about it, when in reality you're going to forget everything you just learned anyways. My math teacher has to be one of the best teachers I've ever had in my life. He knows that school is meant to prepare you for the real world, and takes that into consideration as he teaches us. He gives us examples of when you would use things in real life, and also lets us use notes on test because "in the real world you wouldn't memorize it, you'd have it in your plans or your notes." This makes total complete sense to me, and during his class i listen the entire time, whereas in my other classes i always feel as though im about to fall asleep. Teacher's are important, don't get me wrong, I just believe that they should be required to make the subject interesting.
Lately I've discovered when I'm at school and just hanging out with people, that so many judge before they really get to know a person. I'm sick of being ridiculed because i like to hang out with someone who doesn't look the way that my friends look. Lately im embarrased to even call some of them my friends because of this reason. My "boyfriend" Andrew they've never met before, yet people make fun of him and the way he looks for no reason at all. And i always say, "you dont even know this person" and they're reply is "so what?" It bugs me so much that people can be so cruel. My ex boyfriend they still make fun of and call him a "creeper." I know that he's really tall and skinny but they need to stop because he's still my friend despite the fact that we broke up a year ago. Chloe, my best friend from 5th grade, they always used to make fun of, and none of them had even met her before. Ryan, my homecoming date if he goes, is one of my good friends and few people that i can talk to; Some of my friends make fun of him for being short, and for whatever else happens to come into their mind. I personally try never to judge people that I don't know and everybody slips up sometimes, but I've lost respect for some of my friends, and I lose respect for anyone, who judges someone before they even know them.
