Since saturday i've been at my sister's house in san diego. We've just been sitting around and yesterday, we went shopping. We bought fish and a rock for Henry's tank and he seems to love the fact that the water level is higher now. After that we ate lunch at a place called Oggi's and it was AMAZING. My favorite part was the lettuce wraps that we had. They were messy and made my hands sticky, but it was totally worth it. We ended up giving the rest of our leftovers (almost a full pizza) to a homeless guy that we drove by. After that we headed to the Joann's superstore where Lisa spent a ton on fabric for Joe's quilt, and i bought some scrapbook pages and an iron on that I plan to put on a white shirt. I'll post a picture when I do it, but the white shirt that we bought yesterday turned out to be stained; i decided to wait. I think that this shirt is going to be one of my favorites, as you can tell im excited to wear it.

Other that yesterday, we've just been sitting around the house watching movies and stuff. Last night i did my homework in Lisa's room so that i could be on stand by just in case she needed help with her dresser. It turned out to look awesome, and im pretty sure it took her about 3 hours to put together. Also i put iron on's on two of Joli's white onesies. They turned out to be amazingly cute. I'll take pictures of them and post them later.

Today we were planning on going to the zoo, but my mom woke up and told us that her back hurt, so i have no idea if we're still going or not. I guess we'll see what everybody says.

pushed around

Suddenly some things dont seem as important. Ive thought a lot about what i need to do the last few days, and found that i need to stop letting people control me. I try my hardest to please everyone and in the end it doesnt work out. I need to do whats best for me right now, or at least what i think is best for what i plan to do with my life. I act tough around my friends and let them push me around, when sometimes their amusement causes me to feel bad about myself. Its difficult to live this way so its time to end it.

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This is basically the only physical change ive been going through. As for mentally, there's hardly enough room to explain it all in a blog. But I've learned that everything i do has to be for me, and no one else. It's hard to say what is going to happen in the next month, or even the next week, I think i can do it though. I just need the support.