Oh happy day

Wow the days are going by fast. Lots have happened in the past couple of weeks. Most have it has been very stressful on several different people including me.

Christmas is coming up and im so excited! Friday Lisa, Joe, and Joli are coming up to have a pre-christmas with us. We are going to do the things that we normally do on christmas that day since neither of us will be here on the actual day. My family and i are driving up to Oregon in the motorhome.

Yesterday was Joli's first birthday party, and her father found it neccesary to have a bottle of rum and coke to add to the festivities. Apparently a party isn't a party without the captain present. My gift to Joli was a singing penguin trio that after about 20 times of her pushing the button, you get really sick of it. It's a christmas item though so luckily for Lisa's sanity, the penguins only come out once a year.
Here are some pictures from the party:

Thanksgiving Day!

Last night Lisa, Joli, and Joe arrived and right away things were crazy around the house. My friends Sonali and Ryan were over, and Joli seemed to be particularly interested in Ryan. When he first walked up she pointed at him and said "Lookie!" It was adorable but unfortunately for her, Ryan's baby-phobia got the better of him, and he kept a strict distance of 10 feet away from her.

Soon after i went to soccer practice where only 5 players showed up. It was really disappointing considering the next time our team is together, we will be playing a tournament. I guess we will just have to improvise when it comes to our first game.

This morning i woke up to Joe frantically ticking me: it was rather annoying on my part. I guess he considers it tradition to wake me up like that everytime he comes.

Now we are all just waiting for Daddy to get back so we can eat :]

life

The days have been going by so fast that I barely know what day it is anymore. We just had halloween and its already Thanksgiving?! The last couple weeks I've been focused on the things that mean the most to me. Being a good friend, soccer player, student, swimmer: It all takes effort and time. There was a moment about a month ago where i wasn't sure what I wanted anymore, but it quickly passed and now im content with everything that is happening in my life (for the most part.) I think that if Andrew was here, then my life would literally be perfect. Apparently perfect lives are in the midst of being created, and can not quite express themselves yet.

I know marine biology has been my main obsession for the majority of my life, but lately i've been beginning to rethink it. Maybe being around it so much, i had an overdose and am no longer interested in it; Maybe i just have decided its not as interesting as i had always thought. I'm not sure how to express what has happened, but im not sure what i want my profession to be anymore. It feels wierd to not know. I'm now one of those kids who have no idea what they want to do in life. I've always been the one with an answer and now i have none. It's strange to look to the future and not know what i'm doing. Apparently thats what kids my age are supposed to do, but i've never been like that. I guess i'm just going to free float for a while.

Have you ever felt completely and utterly hopeless because there's some thing that you want to do, but there is no possible way that you can? That's about how i'm feeling right now. Andrew has been really sick this past couple weeks, and yesterday he passed out during school and had to go to the hospital. I honestly didn't know what to say when he told me that. I couldn't come see him because apparently i'm a little person who doesn't know what she's doing. Now i may have just put words in some people's mouths, but we all know that's what they're thinking. I just feel so out of control. I can't go see him and help him through this, which i want to do more than anything. He's someone that I care about so much i would die for him, but he's also my best friend. And i wish i could help him get through this because he's helped me through so much. Honestly there's nothing that he doesn't know about me. When it comes to my problems I can trust him with anything. I dont know; I just needed to rant there for a minute.

Burn Burn

The last few days has consisted of hanging out with friends, the PSAT, and lots of smoke.

On Saturday i woke up at about 7, went to starbucks, and took the PSAT at the high school. It wasn't as hard as i always imagined that it would be but i was still pressed for time making it a little more difficult. After that I went to my friend Ian's house where we ate pizza and watched the third Starwars until it was time for me to get my hair cut. Stacy and i talked about her new baby, Cooper, and she did a great job with my hair in the process.

Saturday night was probably the best part of my weekend. Becca and i painted ourselves with body crayons and partied the whole night. There was one point where we thought we were gonna die but thats ok.

There have been a lot of fires here the last couple days, including one about 4 minutes away from my house. The sky has been several shades of orange and makes it difficult to see at times. I remember the last time we had fires like this my Great Grandmother in Chile passed away. Socal got through those fires, hopefully we'll get through these ones too.

Dressin up

Soccer is basically my life, so here are some pictures of our team:

This is me for sure :]

Sonali is pretty much awesome.

So is danya.

Melissa is cool too.

Right before our game.

The rest of the team needs photographed.

Lately everything has been awesome. Drama in high school as always, but thats easy to deal with because it passes easily.

I bought my dress yesterday for homecoming:

There were 3 that i couldn't choose from so I had Becca help me and she said that this one looked amazing. I found that I was having trouble because all of the dresses are made to eccentuate you're breasts and that definitely wasn't what i needed. In some of them I looked like i might fall over. And a few of them were just interesting to say the least. From the picture you can't really tell but the one that i choose is teal and has ripples across the front. I really didn't want a plain dress or a long formal one. This one fits what i wanted and its gorgeous. You can see the security tag bump on the left of the picture though. Anyways thats about all for now!

School

Throughout the day I have thought about it, and kids would be a lot more interesting in school if it seemed more interesting. It doesn't make sense to me that teachers take a situation, and make you memorize basically everything about it, when in reality you're going to forget everything you just learned anyways. My math teacher has to be one of the best teachers I've ever had in my life. He knows that school is meant to prepare you for the real world, and takes that into consideration as he teaches us. He gives us examples of when you would use things in real life, and also lets us use notes on test because "in the real world you wouldn't memorize it, you'd have it in your plans or your notes." This makes total complete sense to me, and during his class i listen the entire time, whereas in my other classes i always feel as though im about to fall asleep. Teacher's are important, don't get me wrong, I just believe that they should be required to make the subject interesting.

Supid People

Lately I've discovered when I'm at school and just hanging out with people, that so many judge before they really get to know a person. I'm sick of being ridiculed because i like to hang out with someone who doesn't look the way that my friends look. Lately im embarrased to even call some of them my friends because of this reason. My "boyfriend" Andrew they've never met before, yet people make fun of him and the way he looks for no reason at all. And i always say, "you dont even know this person" and they're reply is "so what?" It bugs me so much that people can be so cruel. My ex boyfriend they still make fun of and call him a "creeper." I know that he's really tall and skinny but they need to stop because he's still my friend despite the fact that we broke up a year ago. Chloe, my best friend from 5th grade, they always used to make fun of, and none of them had even met her before. Ryan, my homecoming date if he goes, is one of my good friends and few people that i can talk to; Some of my friends make fun of him for being short, and for whatever else happens to come into their mind. I personally try never to judge people that I don't know and everybody slips up sometimes, but I've lost respect for some of my friends, and I lose respect for anyone, who judges someone before they even know them.

High School Fun

These past few days have been very interesting. On Friday Becca and I headed off to the high school football game where the varsity team whiped the floor with Westlake. I met some new people and had fun.

The next morning we drove to Lisa's house for her birthday with a couple nice gifts and a GIANT cookie. As soon as we got there we sat around for a couple hours until her friend Kacie came and we at the cookie then all went to Claimjumper. We probably should have waited until after we ate real food to eat the cookie, because at that point everybody was feeling a little nausiated. After food and some shopping at target (where I got some really amazing new flats) we all headed back and watched Law and Order. I talked on the phone with Andrew for a while until it was time for me to go to sleep.

The morning after was my favorite morning, mostly because i got to buy new scrapbooking stuff with my parent's money. I bought enough for me to scrapbook halloween and christmas. (Also i needed some stuff to finish Andrew's birthday present because that day is coming up pretty fast. I still have to send it to him as well.) After spending at least and hour and a half at the discount scrapbook store, we went to lunch at this little mexican place in the corner of the shopping center. It was really good, Joli though so too as she grabbed all things in sight with her octopus arms. After that we went to Michael's to get some boxes and stuff to help Lisa organize her house. We went back to her house and sat around until it was time to go home. I slept and listened to music the whole time, and at one point we stopped for dinner and starbucks.

Here are a few pictures from the last week:

hello all!

I have not posted in a month, and Lisa reminded me of that. So I decided to write about what's been going on in my life. Im in school right now and my classes are Algebra 2 H, English 10 H, European History AP, and Biology H. Basically I'm going to have a load of work on my soldiers for this term. Most of my classes are pretty easy right now. Biology is going to be tough but I think that if I work hard then I can make it.

Sports are going good for me too. My soccer team just beat the undefeated Newbury Park team, as you can guess they were pissed. I think that if we keep working together we can do really well this season. The only thing is that we have about 4 players on our team that have never played soccer before. This makes it kind of frustrating for me and some of the other players who have played their whole lives. Also this week I started doing off-season swimming, which is before school. I'm really out of shape so I'm hoping to get better if I keep going.

I was really excited because it finally rained yesterday! All day I had been wanting it to rain, and my friend Becca and I had her mom drop us off at starbucks. As soon as we left to walk home it started pouring! We were soaking by the time that we got back to her house. It was so much fun and there was even a double rainbow after it stopped raining.

Friends are ok, basically the same as always. Now I don't normally write about the guys in my life, but i know some people *cough*Lisa*cough* are very curious. :] About 3 years ago I met a guy named Andy at a bowling alley when I was there for one of my friends' birthday party. Shortly after he moved to Wisconsin so nothing ever happened between us. About month ago we started talking more and have kind of formed a long distance relationship that could actually work. Not only that, he's become my best friend. I dont normally believe in this, but he's moving back soon and he visits every once in a while so yeah.

Ok so yesterday when I was at starbucks, I had the absolute best thing I've ever tasted. It was called a White chocolate mocha, and it was amazing. Anybody who drinks starbucks should definitely go try it. I had my nonfat though because of my stomach, but it was still amazing.

Well I don't have anything else to write about right now, but i'll try to not wait a month before before posting anything haha.

ill write soon!

Just Chillin'

For the last few days, Michael, Brianna and I have just been hanging out around the house. Michael came to my soccer practices and watched; once he even played goalie for us. Lately things have been kind of confusing, and i've discovered that it's impossible for me to like a guy who lives in my own state even. I guess I just don't like california boys.

My dad has taken today and tomorrow off work, so i guess we'll be just running around doing stuff. The only thing that I've done is had Becca come over one after noon, and Michael and I went shopping and to see Rush Hour 3.

My sister is driving me insane. She askes questions constantly, she is always in my buisness, she lies to get what she wants, and she only cares about herself. Even when we went to the beach last saturday, she lied to both me and her best friend Laura so that she could use the only good boogie board. Then when I try to fix it and make it right how it is supposed to be, my mom yells at me and tells me to mind my own buisness. Hellooooo?! It is my buisness. She lied to me so that she could use my boogie board. How is that not my buisness? Ok now i'm just rambling. I guess I just really have nothing that I want to write about. Its been pretty boring besides the fact that Michael always trys to fight me as a result of my girlish weakness. He finds it so funny when i try to fight back and he can just sit on me. So yeah.. I should probably go take a shower. That sounds really good right now.

Crazy Tired

Wow I feel like i've been gone forever. Basically I was just hanging out with michael and his family. His sister has two kids whose ages are 2 and 4 and they were a handful. Everytime i was around them someone was asking me to play with them or hold them. It was ok for the most part, but sometimes I felt as though I wanted to kill myself. We went to the park, the fish hatchary, and most of the time just hung around the house or drove around town in Michael's car. He had tested for his liscense the first day that i was there, and was stoked to finally be able to drive around.

Fish Hatchery [Me, Chelsie, Kem, Michael]

After spending almost two weeks with Michael and his family, I rode back with him, Chelsie, and her boys. They were planning on dropping the two of us off on their way down to New Mexico. It was a 13 hour drive and with minimum stops, we drove all night and arrived at 9 the next day. Naturally we were all whiped out.

Michael claimed his couch.

Chelsie and I curled up on the other one.

Brianna and her friend kept the boys entertained while we passed out.

Basically it was fun. Shortly after, Chelsie and her boys left for another 15 hour drive to her house. I feel bad that we couldn't have helped her for more of the drive.

Today everybody went to the beach, and I even called Chloe and told her to come down. We were all tired and mostly layed down on the blankets and towels. I'm pretty sure that the guys who were sitting right next to us kept checking out our butts every time we turned around. Chloe and I decided to jump into the ocean, but I was still wearing my contacts so I spent the whole time paranoid that they might fall out. Anyways thats about all for now.

Crazy weeks

I just realized that I haven't written at all in a long time.

The faerie festival was awesome; I had so much fun dancing and hanging out with Lisa, Brianna and Laume. Laume and I even joined in the spiral dance. I couldn't tell you what was the best part of the festival if i tried. I had so much fun and didn't feel the normal peer pressure to be pretty or skinny and i didn't care what I looked like. Everybody was so friendly and especially loved Joli. Every person who had a camara stopped to take a few pictures of her. One of the men said that her picture would be on the faerie worlds website.

After the faerie festival Me and my sisters made our way to my aunts house, where i stayed for about a week and a half. The whole time i hung out with paige, which was fun, especially since she can drive now. We hung out at the lake most of the time but also did a lot of other things.

Now i'm at my friend michaels house where i will be until his sister drives down to new mexico and drops me off at my house. I've basically been hanging out with him and his family.

Hormone-tastic

Right now I'm not in the happiest mood. Rebecca and her family are leaving tomorrow and I might not be able to see them for a month. She's my best friend and the only person that I can talk to. I don't know what I'm going to do without her. They are going to Sweden to visit the rest of her family so I we won't be able to call or anything. I'm going to miss her and her cousins so much. Her, me, and Viktor had stayed up until 3 in the morning talking that one night. I felt like somebody finally understood me and I've become close to them both. I don't know who I'm going to talk to with both of them in Sweden. It seems like no one cares and if they do, they don't understand what I'm going through. I guess I'll just have to write a lot then. I made them both cds to take with them. Rebecca can put them on her ipod so that they can listen to them on the plane ride (which is about 12 hours.) I guess part of the reason why I feel the way I do is because it's that time of the month. I always get this way, but still.




I was really excited this morning because after 6 months I FINALLY put a new picture on my myspace.


Also.... I FINISHED MY QUILT!!!! Well, kind of. I didn't bind it, but I'm not sure if i want to yet. My mom says that it looks fine the way that it is, but I don't know whether I am or not. I can always change my mind later if I want to. I'll put a picture up later since I'm to lazy to go take one right now (sorry guys.)



There's a song that I'm listening to right now called "Different" by Acceptance, and I think I'm going to write some of the the lyrics:



Tell myself on the ride home getting tired hating all i've known holding on like its all i have count me out when its clear that i find it hard to say and you find it hard to care i wanted to see something thats different something you said would change in me wanted to feel anything different anything you would change in me got this way upfront but never true god im wrong its just the way i am wanted to feel anything different everything you would change in me.




I don't know why, but I've always loved that song.

Swim Fiesta & More

I finally found my phone and charged it, so one of the first things that I did was call my best friend Rebecca. We made plans and the last couple days I've spent at her house. I was there yesterday in the afternoon and came back later and stayed the night. It was a lot of fun: We were able to catch up on everything that I'd missed while I was gone, and I also was able to meet her cousins who are here from Sweden. Her littlest cousin is so adorable! Everytime I see her I think of a little fairy, and I'm able to communicate with her mildly even though unlike her brothers, she doesn't speak English. Her brothers are 13 and 15 and the one that is our age is exeptionally fluent in English. I was really interested to hear about Sweden and apparently it is raining and about 50 degrees during the summer there. Beach on a summer day?

Anyways, it was fun and Rebecca and I finally got rid of our one piece tans from swimming, or at least I did. It was so weird the first time that we stepped into her pool. There were warm patches everywhere because the filter hadn't been running and stirring up the water. It was actually kind of funny. Unfortunately, her and her family are leaving for Sweden on Monday for the rest of the summer and it would cost a buttload of money to even call. So I guess I'll have to find someone else to hang out with for a while.

Today we went with my parents to see the newest Harry Potter. It was awesome except a few things were different than the way that the book had described them. Also there wasn't even a mention of Quiddich throughout the entire movie. I think most of the social aspect of the books were taken out of the movie to focus around the fact that Lord Voldemort was back. It was a really good movie with lots of action though. I'm not sure if it's my favorite, but it is pretty high up there. And Harry kissed Cho! She wasn't very pretty though. Oh well. I would recomend the movie if you haven't seen it. Most of you probably haven't though since it's only been out for three days. That's all for today, but I will write again soon.

Just Another Day

Let's see, where to start. Well, I got up this morning at about eight because I had an appointment with my eye doctor, who ended up giving me new contacts for astigmatism. It's nothing serious, just a way to help me see a lot clearer. When I arrived at home I ended up sleeping for about 3-4 hours. After I got up, I put the finishing touches on my wings. Here is a better picture of them:

As I was walking around with the camara, I discovered my lovable kitten sleeping in her favorite spot on the cat's gym:

I worked more on the costume for Brianna and after a while my Mom came and picked me out so that we could go run some errands. For dinner I had half of a Pizza Hut Pizzone, which was awesome, just a lot of food. I went to my room to and decided to quilt as I watched CSI. I must have been quilting for a long time because before I realized it, it was almost nine 'o clock. I decided that I wanted to take a long, hot bath and continue reading a book that was loaned to me by Linda (Laume) named The Mists of Avalon. It's a really good book and in the last few days I've gotten twice as far as I was. I lied in the bath for about an hour and the got out and continued to read for a while. Then I continued quilting until one in the morning when I finally finished. Now I just have to sew it and bind the edges.

Today I woke up, took a shower, and worked on my costume. Sounds pretty exciting huh? I'm actually really proud of what I've accomplished today. I had started out with just a few ideas that I wanted my costume to look like, and it ended up being something entirely different. Here are all the pieces of it:









These are my wings.







This is the top:











This is the fabric that is going to be under the top.







This is my favorite part, the skirt. It took me forever to make but it is so comfertable that I can't even describe it.











I'm really glad that my mom isn't on my case about the house though.







I'm really proud of the work that I did, and I'm really excited for the Fairy Festival.

Drowing in Crafts

The last few days I've been really busy with making fairy costumes and trying to finish my quilt. So far I have Brianna's two costumes done. I've found that making these things definitely relieve any stress that you have in your life and are a productive way to spend your time. I'm really glad that I decided to make the costumes instead of buying them.

Today my mom and I went to several different stores to find fabrics, flowers, and clothing that could be used for fairy costumes. We first went to the Salvation Army and found not only stuff for the costumes, but also a ton of other stuff that we probably didn't need. Almost everything there was buy one get one free, so we only ended up spending about $50, which was amazing for the amount of stuff that we bought. We stopped by target for some things that my mom needed when she said "the things that fairies wear kind of look like underwear." I thought that this was pretty funny, but I humored her and we went and looked. It turned out that we did find something that would be a great addition to my costume, but of course I'm wearing something under it.

After that we were on our way to the fabric store when my mom decided that she wanted to stop at a HomeGoods store. She ended up finding the rug that she's been looking for since we've moved into our house, along with other decorations for the house. The fabric store came next. I looked and found all the fabric that I'd needed, which was only about 1.50 per yard. Right after we arrived home, I decided to start on Brianna's costumes. The first step was to make her first skirt which looks like this:
(That's my cat Annie in the corner.)
All I did was cut it off of an old dress that we bought at Salvation Army and make it into a skirt. I don't have picture of the other one that I made her but it was a short dress, green, and velvet. After I was done measuring and sewing, we started making wings for ourselves. None of it turned out that badly.

New Blog

I figured since I am going to either be home or traveling all summer, I might as well start a blog so that I would be able to write down all of my adventures. I'm very curious as to whether or not I am going to like this or not. I used to keep a diary of some sort, but it was to tedious to remember to write in it all the time. I think it will be a lot more interesting if people I know read what I'm writing.





On another note, I'd started a quilt at Linda (Lisa's mother-in-law)'s house. Today I worked a bit on it and started sewing the blocks together, but the sewing machine is different that the other one I had used. I'm not sure how to work it but I'll figure it out soon.





I watched a mini-series called The Lost Room last night; It was so interesting that I ended up staying up until 3:00 in the morning finishing it. It was about a guy who comes across a lost hotel key, to a room that doesn't exist. The room can take you anywhere that has a door, but you can't leave anything inside of it or the room will reset itself. The Man's daughter went into the room by accident and the whole series is about him trying to get his daughter back. There's a lot more to the story, but I thought that it was great. It only has six episodes so it's not something that will take you a long time to watch it. If it even mildly interests you, go watch it; it's an amazing series.